Since being 'let go' from my job, I've started dragging my lazy ass to the gym each morning. Well, not each morning, but at least three times a week. At first, my poor, old, body was confused, then distraught at the sudden punishment. "Why?!" I could hear it cry each morning when I got out of bed. My joints creaked and at one point in time I thought my kneecap stopped working. "Punishment!" was my answer. "Today we will ride 15 miles uphill on the stationary bike because of your whining!" I think my heart tried to give out as I drove to the gym at 8am, but my will power was stronger.
I can't wait until we go to aerobics class. *whee*
In other news (not that any of you care), today I have an interview for a job. I've got another one tomorrow. AND I have a prospect else where, but the pay would probably be significantly less. So, I guess it's not totally hopeless. Not that I'm saying I'll actually get anywhere with the interviews, but I'm one of those people who refuses to get her hopes up.
The idea of starting a new job is scary. New people, new procedures, new everything. For seven years, I knew what I was supposed to do and how to do it. I'm terrified of messing something up. But with mistakes come learning, so it's not that big a deal. And I'm pretty good with people--even the ones I don't like.
The more I think about, the more I realize that I am more aggravated by job loss not because of money, but because the inconvenience of being thrust out of my comfort zone. I guess I'd just become too complacent in life. This was an awakening I desperately needed. Since I'm no longer working where I used to work, I've been a lot happier. Sure, I miss the people and the job itself, but I don't miss the stress and the ridiculous management nightmare it had become. I find myself asking, "Why did I stay there so long?"
Sadly, if I don't find another job and get called back by them, I'd have to go. Unemployment doesn't look kindly on turning down a job, so I'd lose my only source of income if I told them to go to hell. I'm praying I get something ASAP, because I heard the boss was planning on bringing me back--but not to my regular job. Nope, I'd have to start all over again, and I don't want to do that again.
*sigh* Well, what will be will be, I guess.
Other than that, I've spent quite a bit of time playing my new game J bought me. Tales of Legendia is pretty fun, though not the stellar example that was Tales of Symphonia. I'll post more on this once I finish the game--I'm still not certain where the story is going so I don't have much to say about it. I also picked up Grandia 3, but it's unopened. I'll play it after I finish Legendia, but I have big hopes for it. The new Shadow Hearts is out the beginning of March too. Yay!
GOOD LUCK!
Sometimes we need a kick in the pants to realise that we've gotten to be a certain way. You seem to be making the most of it!
You should be proud of yourself for dragging yourself to the gym at 8 am. I only do that on weekends. Soemtimes I go twice if I don't have much to do.
I think you'll do fine with your interviews and in a new job. You're way to smart and talented for your old job.
Posted by: Sarah at February 16, 2006 02:13 PMYeah, got two interviews tomorrow now. LOL One at a real estate agencey and at Amazon. I'm hoping for the Amazon job though. LOL We'll see how it goes tomorrow.
Busy day for me.
Posted by: Zoso at February 16, 2006 03:27 PMHey YOU! Of couse we care! Wouldn't be here if we didn't, eh. I'm currently lookin' for a job myself and it's a bitch. I think I might've cried a few times, actually. But man, I actually WANT to work and no one's hiring until spring. *sigh* And all after I so calmly explained to them all that my "goddamn mother@#$%ing stomach couldn't wait that long," too.
Hang in there!
Posted by: J00kst3r at February 16, 2006 11:37 PMThanks J00kst3r! I'm sure you'll find something too! Just keep pounding the pavement! I'll be rooting for you!
Posted by: Zoso at February 17, 2006 03:13 PM