November 12, 2004
Being Poor Sucks and I'm NOT too old! ;-P
So, my lay-off date from work is two weeks earlier than expected...
I have mixed feelings about that. I'm pretty poor right now, and was banking on the last few paychecks to save up some cash. That's not gonna happen now. *sigh* I'm not looking forward to dealing with "Unenjoyment" either. That's unemployment for those of us who deal with it on a year to year basis. Last year went uncannily smooth, so I'm praying that will happen again this year.
On the other hand, I'm really looking forward to the time off. I've been offered a part time job somewhere else...oddly enough a place where I buy a lot of my anime and japanese comics. *laughs* That tells you how good of a customer I am! Scary, huh? I've thought about it, but I really do like sitting on my ass for six weeks during the winter. Believe me, when I say my "real" job is stressful, you have no idea....any time off I can get is needed to re-coop.
Some people are waiting for some updates on a few of my projects. I'd like to say, "I'm working on it" and "Don't worry, I haven't forgotten". You know who you are. I'll update stuff soon, have no fear! (considering I'll have tons of time on my hands after next Friday)
I've been drawing a lot more lately. That makes me happy. I still think I suck at it, but oh well. I love art. All kinds. Creativity is a beautiful thing! People who draw, write stories, create music are the most awesome people in the world! Self expression is important these days. I've always wanted to do a comic book of my own. Ever since I was a little girl. My first real love of comics came when I was like 10 or 12. I collected "Elfquest", which to this day I just adore for the wonderful story and beautiful characters. I read things like X-men and Spiderman. I recently developed fondness for "Witchblade". Japanese comics came way later, and I'm atttracted to their various art styles and expressive stories. "Elfquest", in my opinion, is very "mangaesque", so I suppose I've always been partial to comics like that.
It bugs me when people say things like "You're too old for that kind of stuff". I really want to smack them in the mouth (especially the silly little teenagers). Why is it, when you reach a certain age, people expect you to abandon your creativity for things like CNN and the stockmarket? I don't like those sort of things. Why should I pay any attention to them? Sure, I watch the news, but I'm not glued to it 24/7, nor do I feel the need to read a newspaper everyday. Why should I give up the things I enjoy just because the number of years I've lived has gone past a certain number?
That doesn't make much sense to me.
One of the great things about being grown up is that you can make choices and know that not everyone will agree with them. I know people think my hobbies are strange for someone in their late 20's. You know what, I don't care. I choose to endulge in the stuff I enjoy because it makes me happy. There's nothing wrong with that, and frankly, it's no one's business but my own. What is wrong, is giving up things you love, whether it be cartoons, comics, books, music, movies, toys, etc., just because society says it's necessary.
To me, that's stupid, not to mention weak. Why are people such sheep? Why are they so willing to throw away things they love just because society says it's suppose to be that way? If my tastes change in the next few years, so be it, but you won't find me giving up my love of comics, games, or cartoons just because I'm a grown up.
I have to laugh though, because no matter how surprised people are at my hobbies, I know that there are many grown-ups out there like me. Evil Smiley makes the most killer lego designs and loves Godzilla! He's in the military too. (You rock! And I want those tractor pictures!) Two of my friends, one who is in his 40s and the most active individual I've ever met, still love their Marvel comics. Another friend is hooked on anime and cartoons too. My best friend loves Batman and Spiderman, manga, anime, etc. All of these people are older than me, save the last one. They all lead productive, mature, adult lives. Imagine that....
Who are you, or anyone else for that matter, to tell them that they should give up the things they like? Hmmm? Kudo's for them for knowing their own minds and being comfortable enough to be who they are and like what they want!
All my friends kick ass.
Anyway, people, just give it some thought before you start judging people. Is it your place? I think not and I imagine that you have some hobbies and quirks of your own that other's find "peculiar". Also, hold on to the things you love the most. Don't let them go because the bigger picture says it must be so. That's a dirty lie fed to us from the time we are small. Prioritize what's important, that's for sure, but never let someone tell you you have to give something up because you're too old.
You best listen when a drunk Tengu tells you to! *laughs*